Church today inspired me to go back to my Journal and read previous entries.. WOW. Most people write a journal so their children will know what they went through when they were young. What can I say? ... I must really love boys.
One of my favorite entries though, before I get to the main point:
"Friday, February 14, 2003.
When I wright in my journal nobody can look in it because it's my journal and NOBODY can look in it at all. Good."
So you can't look in my journal. Got it? Rule of life.
ANYWAY.. back to my "boys" thoughts.
I would like to make a point that girls have problems when they start hitting puberty and liking boys and such.. boys probably have the same problems but I am at least living proof that girls are freaks.
"April 13, 2005 (Age 11)
Yesterday I actually talked to "Bob". He's a cute boy. His brother is on Izaak's soccer team. He's 11 turning 12 in, I think, July or June. He's in 5th grade. He says his brother "Billy" likes me. (Yes in my journal I underlined "likes" at least 3 times.)
That's awful because his brother "Billy" is only eight and I'm 11. There's a little bit of a difference in there. Well, what three years. But then "Billy" says that "Bob" likes me. (Again, underlined 4 times there.) I don't know which one is true but maybe they're both telling the truth.
"Billy" sure blushed when his brother said he liked me."
... yes I inserted fake names to make the boys feel better.. I honestly don't even remember these kids. So.. this was my first written account of me and boys.. not including my brothers.
On October 13th of the same year I have a whole page filled on how freaked out I am about having hormones. "That's it! I'm totally boy crazy! It's scary. Hormones are like taking over my body and I don't want that to happen!" .. accompanying my "freak out" insert, I had on the page to the right of it a girl that was being attacked by blobs which I conveniently labeled "hormones" for the reader. Pretty handy dandy there, aye?
(Yes, I'm laughing.) Check this one out!
"Monday, March 6, 2006 (Age 12)
Yesterday, freaky, including having boys stare at me and having the boy I like pass the sacrament to me. It was kinda freaky but I guess life is like that sometimes. I need to be very careful."
From July of 2007 to April of 2008 I counted about 8 boys that I mentioned having a crush on and then found about 6 others that I mentioned but wouldn't be caught dead with a diary explaining that I had an undying love for them in my dreams.
It wasn't until high school when the boy thoughts calmed themselves down and allowed room in my noggin for schoolwork, dance, instruments, etc. Hallelujah, at least it happened at some point.
October 28, 2008 was the first time I ever actually mentioned having a conversation with someone of the male sex. Hooray for actually attending a school for the first time in 3 years! Homeschooling doesn't give you too much of a boy variety. Unless you prefer your brothers and dad in which case you're pretty well off.
And here I am now.. going to many group dates, blind dates, group nights, dance extravaganzas, etc. as I can and just plain enjoying boys' company! Its interesting to see my growth in this aspect.
I encourage all readers to go back to their journals or diaries.. what do you have to be embarrassed about?
